What if you don’t have plans of staying late outside your home but incidents just made you stay somewhere far from the comfort of your bed. What if drinking (alcohol) was never a part of your plan for that day but no-risk-invitation made you release some thoughts that were actually normal for you to hide? What if those thoughts imply what your feelings are? What if between those drinking hours, you were hit by events that would trigger your emotions?
The triggering events may highlight or note some insecurities when you think about it, about her. Then after it, you ask your non-EQ capacity to take control because it would become unhealthy to favor emotions over reality? But then again, after it, your IQ gives back to EQ the control over you brain because another reality of wanting her wants to be noticed? What if that would stuck to you until you take a complete rest?
But after it all, what if you know how to lie enough that you can say, “Huh, just forget it! Life is life. It doesn’t even have much effect on me. Bla bla bla!” What if you just have the capacity to forget the whole triggering event? That is even if the event will preoccupy some part of your thought the next time you wake up.